Well. Chris is officially gone. I'm really sad about the whole thing. And actually crying a little. I love him. So much. And I'm really going to miss him. We may have had our rough moments, but he's really a great brother. I hope he stays safe, and doesn't have too hard of a time in OK. As soon as we find out what his address is there, I'm going to write him all the time.
I was thinking about this particular blog lastnight before I fell asleep, and what I was going to say here. And I had something else I really wanted to discuss, but I can't remember what it is now. I just keep thinking about Chris. It was weird lastnight, he and I were talking and I didn't think about how I really wasn't going to be able to do this for awhile with him. It kind of just hit me.
For those of you who are offended or not clear as to why this is such a sad day in my household, it's because Chris really didn't want to have to do this. He made quite a few bad choices, and ultimately they led to this. And it was a brash decision he made to join up, and my whole family is really upset about this. The Army has been a tremendous strain upon my family and our relationships within it, and not to disrespect anyone in uniform, but this was not a life we wanted for Chris, for any of us really. I just hope he stays safe, and sticks to his plan: keep his head down, finish his term of service, and then go back to school. Like those Army commercials, but for real, because he doesn't want this. But there's not a whole lot he can do now. There's not a whole lot any of us can do now. Except to be there for him and support him.
Chris, I love you so much. You've taught me everything I know. And I'm going to miss you more than either of us could have imagined. Stay safe. I love you.
I was thinking about this particular blog lastnight before I fell asleep, and what I was going to say here. And I had something else I really wanted to discuss, but I can't remember what it is now. I just keep thinking about Chris. It was weird lastnight, he and I were talking and I didn't think about how I really wasn't going to be able to do this for awhile with him. It kind of just hit me.
For those of you who are offended or not clear as to why this is such a sad day in my household, it's because Chris really didn't want to have to do this. He made quite a few bad choices, and ultimately they led to this. And it was a brash decision he made to join up, and my whole family is really upset about this. The Army has been a tremendous strain upon my family and our relationships within it, and not to disrespect anyone in uniform, but this was not a life we wanted for Chris, for any of us really. I just hope he stays safe, and sticks to his plan: keep his head down, finish his term of service, and then go back to school. Like those Army commercials, but for real, because he doesn't want this. But there's not a whole lot he can do now. There's not a whole lot any of us can do now. Except to be there for him and support him.
Chris, I love you so much. You've taught me everything I know. And I'm going to miss you more than either of us could have imagined. Stay safe. I love you.
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