I was thinking to myself; this could be Heaven, and this could be Hell...

-The Eagles.

Have you ever prepared yourself for something for a long time? A moment that "your whole life leads up to"? A moment that "will grow to define you"? I feel like I may have had one of those today. But it didn't happen like you think it would, like the movie say it will. It just happened. And I have been dreaming about the perfect moment and what I would do during it, how I would possibly forever change myself and the world around me. But, at the last second I chickened out. I suddenly felt that the time was not perfect. But I doubt that I can wait forever, so I just need to strategically make the perfect moment myself. I can already envision plenty of opportunities to make it happen, I just need to build everything strategically up to that. Make sure everything is in place, where I need it to be. I can make if my Heaven, an succeed in my goal, and hopefully make my happy ending, or with one wrong move, I can make it my Hell and ruin it all. But that's the chance I'll have to take if I really want this. And I do, for both of our sakes.